亲身经历加州大学圣芭芭拉分校枪击案件

凌晨4点，睡不着，满脑子还是想着前晚亲身经历的枪击案件。早晨洛杉矶领事馆领事就微信我询问具体信息，晚上从蜡烛祈福回来后，和朋友聊起，如果，如果5月23日晚上9：30我们4个人早几分钟从IV Deli Mart经过，或着，早十几分钟从Alpha Phi，最高级别的姐妹会，转弯回家，后果真的不堪设想。在这里，强调是死了7个人（3个被扫射而死，3个被凶手在他apratment中已被杀死，加上凶手自己最后死亡共7个），我和朋友经过了3个被扫射而死的人分别2个案发现场，IV Deli Mart 和 Alpha Phi姐妹会正楼旁的草坪。




先说前提，下面有英文是因为我都是看的国外网站和国外新闻，引用了其中原话才有的英文。因为发生在美国，个别词用英语原词会更准确，事实才是主要，请个别人尊重，谢谢合作。

当时自己经历是这样：我和朋友买完frozen yogurt走到IV Deli Mart 门口，看到几个警察围在门口，我们周围的人都还不知道怎么回事，只听见警察大声对我们叫: “Please hide inside the neariest building!! A drive-by shooting is happening here!! HIDE, RIGHT NOW!” 我们听到这吓傻了，慌忙跑到silvergreen旁的停车场躲着，后来陆续来人躲着，旁边就开始枪声不断，凶手是边开车边拿着枪扫射。真的感谢silvergreen的工作人员，让我们从小门进到厨房躲着，大家都非常不安才意识到事情严重性。于是我们在厨房多了一个半小时，外面警车越来越多，而外面已经不知不觉中乱成一团。凶手不断扫射，警车不断追赶，这种在电影的场景没想到就发生在我们每天经过每晚经过的社区正中心。在场面控制下来后，我们4个赶紧回家，此时此刻，只想活着。因为Alpha Phi就在我家斜对面，从社区回家必须经过Alpha Phi转角处的草坪，当时回家时，就发现草坪上已经躺了俩具被盖着白布的尸体，经历上个枪杀又从俩尸体旁走过，当时回到家，四个人都想着：活着就好。于是第二天我头疼了一天，估计受了惊吓，真的，这么近，生死一线，活着就好。

可能是自己身边的事情，随着调查渐渐公开，我想在这里梳理下事情发生过程。

事情起因：凶手Elliot Rodger，Hunger Games 导演助理的儿子，家庭富裕，SBCC的学生(不是UCSB), 在行凶前自己在车里录了一段自白，自白里解释行凶的动机，大概是因为被UCSB女生拒绝，到22岁仍然是处男，嫉妒所有正在enjoy college life的学生，觉得自己不被女生欣赏喜欢，讨厌Humanity感觉不平衡就报复社会，报复女性，自白中提到要去UCSB hottest sorority把所有女生杀死。因为国内看不到Youtube或被禁了，以下是视频他自白文稿：

“Hi. Elliot Rodger here. Well, this is my last video. It all has to come to this. Tomorrow is the day of retribution. The day in which I will have my revenge against humanity, against all of you. For the last eight years of my life, ever since I’ve hit puberty, I’ve been forced to endure an existence of loneliness, rejection and unfulfilled desires. All because girls have never been attracted to me. Girls gave their affection and sex and love to other men, but never to me.I’m 22 years old and still a virgin. I’ve never even kissed a girl. I’ve been through college for two and a half years – more than that actually – and I’m still a virgin. It has been very torturous. College is the time when everyone experiences those things such a sex and fun and pleasure. But in those years I’ve had to rot in loneliness. It’s not fair. You girls have never been attracted to me. I don’t know why you girls aren’t attracted to me, but I will punish you all for it. It’s an injustice, a crime, because.. I don’t know what you don’t see in me. I’m the perfect guy and yet you throw yourselves at all these obnoxious men instead of me, the supreme gentleman. I will punish all of you for it. Hehe. On the day of retribution I am going to enter the hottest sorority house of UCSB and I will slaughter every single spoiled stuck up blonde slut I see inside there. All those that I’ve desired so much, they would have all rejected me and looked down upon me as an inferior man if I ever made a sexual advance towards them, while they throw themselves at these obnoxious brutes. I’ll take great pleasure in slaughtering all of you. You will finally see that I am in truth the superior one, the true alpha male. Hehe… yes. After I’ve annihilated every single girl in the sorority house, I’ll take to the streets of Isla Vista and slay every single person I see there. All those popular kids who lived such lives of hedonistic pleasure while I’ve had to rot in loneliness for all these years. They’ve all looked down upon me every time I tried to go out and join them, they’ve all treated me like a mouse. But now, I will be a God compared to you. You will all be animals – you are animals – and I will slaughter you like animals. And I’ll be your God, exacting my retribution on all those who deserve it. And you do deserve it. Just for the crime of living a better life than me. All you popular kids, you’ve never accepted me. And now you all pay for it. And girls, all I’ve ever wanted was to love you and be loved by you. I wanted a girlfriend, I wanted sex, I wanted love, affection, adoration. Do you think I’m unworthy of it? That’s a crime that can never be forgiven. If I can’t have you, girls, I will destroy you. Hehe… sigh. You denied me a happy life, and in turn I will deny all of you live. It’s only fair. I hate all of you. Humanity is a disgusting, wretched, depraved species. If I had it in my power, I would stop at nothing to reduce every single one of you to mountains of skulls and rivers of blood. And rightfully so. You deserve to be annihilated. And I’ll give that to you. You never showed me any mercy, and so I will show you none. Hehe. You forced me to suffer all my life, and now I’ll make you all suffer. I’ve waited a long time for this. I’ll give you exactly what you deserve – all of you. All you girls who rejected me and looked down upon me and, you know, treated me like scum while you gave yourselves to other men. And all of you men, for living a better life than me. All of you sexually active men, I hate you. I hate all of you. And I can’t wait to give you exactly what you deserve: utter annihilation. Hehehe.” （FB）

事发现场：于是2014.5.23 周五晚9:27pm左右，开始开车扫射，当晚他的行凶致死6人，致伤至少7人，6名死者中3人是被扫射而死，3人是事发前就被凶手stabbed to death在家中(2人是他的室友)。扫射致死的3人信息已公开，都是UCSB学生，“fourth-year student Katie Cooper, first-year student Veronika Weiss and second-year student Christopher Ross Michael-Martinez.” （Marrisa, Daily Nexus）因为他主要是报复姐妹会女生，据目击者称：“he drove to the Alpha Phi sorority house at 840 Embarcadero Del Norte. From inside the house, several members of the sorority heard “loud and aggressive knocking,” according to Brown, but did not open the door.”　姐妹会没有开门，于是凶手就杀死了在姐妹会外面草坪等人的两名女生致死亡。后来开到IV Deli Mart,(新开的一家超市), 子弹直接射穿玻璃，“he got out of his car, went inside and shot and killed Christopher Ross Michaels-Martinez. He was a student at UCSB and an employee of the deli.” (Sergio, ABC7 News) 凶手走入超市，射中一人致死亡. 后来开到便利店7-11，扫射致2人受伤，最后警车全力追捕，凶手最后加速并开枪自杀身亡。”Rodger’s car then careened into several parked vehicles. It was there, in the car, that he apparently shot himself.“ ”Investigators are now saying the 22-year-old died of a self-inflicted gunshot wound.“ (ABC7 News)

事发后，凶手邻居还提到，之前他是表现得很抑郁，他们尝试开导他，但不知道最后还是惨案发生。凶手父亲提到儿子之前患有心理疾病，当地警方曾3次到家查看情况。据theguardian记者报道：“An attorney for Rodger’s father said Rodger was diagnosed as a high-functioning patient with Asperger’s syndrome and had trouble making friends.” （theguardian.co.uk)

6名被杀死者信息(4/25 updated)：

The six Isla Vista massacre victims, from top left: Christopher Michaels-Martinez, Veronika Weiss, Katie Cooper, Cheng-Yuan Hong, George Chen, Weihan Wang. (ABC7 News)

上面三位是凶手开枪致死，下面三位华裔(来自Bay Area)是当晚凶手最先刺伤致死亡在apartment中。下面三位华裔具体背景还在调查，但确定是来自Bay Area, “The Santa Barbara sheriff’s office said Sunday that the stabbing victims were 20-year-old Cheng Yuan Hong and 19-year-old George Chen – both from San Jose – and 20-year-old Weihan “James” Wang of Fremont.” Wang 和 Hong是凶手的室友，Chen不是。根据Wang朋友称，他们俩个一直认为凶手一直很奇怪，有心理疾病，就等着这学期结束就搬出去，可惜没搬出去就永别人世。(ABC7 News)

警方仍在调查。

结论：整个行凶起因是有些离谱，因为22岁还是处男？因为不被女生欣赏？因为嫉妒别人能享受大学生活特别是都有have sex的经历？因为觉得自己很孤单？美国是个枪支自由的国家，是天堂，也是地狱，只要走极端，好人变恶魔。人是渺小的，内心要强大。我们身边还有很多很多类似于像凶手一样有着心灵疾病的隐藏患者，我们更需要去关爱周边的人，同时也要提醒自己，人活着不简单，要有正确地人生态度。

    事发第二天，天离奇的灰蒙蒙一整天，风很凉，人心更凉。事发第二晚，几乎全体UCSB教职员工和学生，还有SBCC学生参与蜡烛悼念会，大家的心还是团结一起，为逝去的校友悼念。

    最主要的是，平安就好，出国留学真的不容易，有事没事多和国内家人电话联系，不要让她们担心，因为，我们是她们的命根，我们是国内家人的一切。

God bless you.

In mourning. In solidarity. R.I.P （所有照片来源Facebook各个同学提供）
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额外话：

事发第二晚睡不着写下的回忆和梳理没想到这么多人关注。首先，谢谢那些关心我们留学生，关心UCSB，关心我的状况的朋友们。这几天，越来越多的中外媒体不断涌入这个正在愈伤的学校，虽然已经离惨案过去了4天，大家还是心有余悸，包括我自己。今天参加全校追悼活动后，我更是体会到UCSB的强大的凝聚力，我也坚信大家一定会共度这个困难的愈伤时刻，早日回归充满生机阳光的加州校园生活。

但是，在这里，作为经历者，同时UCSB华人学生会的成员，我还是想强调：

1）无论国内国外怎么报道这次案件，我都希望媒体报道事实，不是说针对SBCC学校，只是事实是关键，而且最开始发布日志就已经强调了 — 凶手是SBCC (Santa Barbara City College), 不是UCSB，但是6名受害者全部是UCSB学生，并且凶手在SBCC也经常旷课。

2）这篇日志原本是回忆加初步梳理，随着调查深入，我后来才加入了图片和目击者的口述(英文)。凶手的动机有太多太多的因素在里面，社会因素，自身因素，感情因素等等；枪支自由，父母的离异，缺乏关爱，患有严重心理疾病以及有交友障碍，或许还有很多很多我们不知道的危险因素在里面，所以不是说”他是处男“就是问题关键，很多原因聚集在一个人身上才会导致这个惨案发生。

3）惨案已经过去了，真的希望不要看到国内一些人对3位华裔逝者的抨击。谁都不希望一直以宁静著名的圣巴巴拉市发生这件惨案。逝者安息。

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UCSB, “once a Gaucho, always a Gaucho!” Stay strong!